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Hello Friends and thanks for following my blog. Please comment on this page versus facebook. This blog is not for entertainment. It is a more intimate blog that is part of a course that I am currently taking with professor Rockquemore @ UIC, a course titled "Leadership For Change". In this course we are learning about different types of leaders, more importantly finding out who we are and finding the leader in us! I appreciate you following along and will try to keep you as informed as possible. Our Assignment are usually based on readings from 4 books 1.Bell Hooks, All About Love 2.Susan Komives Exploring Leadership: For College Students Who Want To Make a Difference 3. Parker Palmer, Let Your Life Speak 4. Barbara Sher. Wishcraft: How to Get What You Really Want. and additional reading from our Blackboard site.

Monday, October 26, 2009






REVISED PLANNING WALL COMPLETE FOR THE NEXT YEAR. I AM STILL WORKING ON COMPLETING THE FOLLOWING 4 YEARS.




REFLECTING ON FEAR....
I have a fear of failing. I have always had this fear, but I have been able to control it for the majority of the semester. While working on the final draft of my planning wall, I had a fear of failing. When I think of making it and being successful, I my heart palpates and I sense hot flashes. This feeling reiterates my fear of failing. It helped me realize that I run from what I want because I am afraid that I am not capable of doing so. I control this by thinking to myself, "The only thing to fear, is fear itself." When I felt fearful I thought of my role model, professor Atuahene and her success. It makes me feel better.

Sunday, October 18, 2009

Interview W/ Abigail B.

This week I had a very hard time contacting my contacts. I emailed some people called others and had no responses, others gave me a later date. So I began digging into other contacts, 
My friend A.B. recently graduated with a masters in public health and is currently traveling within the U.S. assisting veterans of war.

I asked her, Why public health. 

AB: after my bachelors in chemistry I applied to Medical Schools, and did not get the response, I wanted. I started applying for jobs and I realized a bachelors in chemistry, I wasn't really the best candidate for many of the positions I was interested in. I decided I needed something more than Chemistry. I researched grad schools and their programs and Public Health seemed almost as satisfying as being a doctor although, I still wonder, what would I be doing today if I had been admitted into medical school.

What is it about beign a doctor that satisfies you:
AB:Well, I want to help people feel better. I want the title Dr. B*****, I want to make good money and feel very important in my career. 
 ME: Do you get that satifaction in your current field.
AB: For the most part. I feel needed at times. I don't feel threatened in my postion, like I might loose my job at any time.  Other postions I have held while in school, I always feared being fired. I make a decent amount compared to doctors, although they obviously, make more! No one refers to me as Dr. B******* . I am helping people, in my current position, veterans at that! I mean they went to war for America and now its my turn to help  them.

What do you wish you knew then that you know now,
I wish I was educated on more careers paths than Medicine. It seems like in the black community, all we know is to become a lawyer, doctor, or something so cliche'! You know what I mean? When I was recieveing my masters I met people who recieved there bachelors in all sorts of interesting fields that allows a person to help others.  I'm glad I know now, my kids will have better oppurtunities. I just pray that I am up to part on information about different majors by the time they go to college.

What kind of majors are you refering to,
Okay one field that I found to be really amazing was a speech and throat therapist. They perform swallow tests and speech tests for patients who are experiencing  complications with speech or swallowing. They don't do much and they get paid very well. 


Sunday, October 11, 2009

Interviewing 2 Nurses...

Interview: 

Nurse
Karen
She chose a career in the nursing field because she loves working with people on a personal level. She enjoys her job and gets a great deal of satisfaction when she discharges patients. 
"The best part of the job is when you discharge patients, a patient that came in sick is now healed and healthy. I appreciate my career in Nursing because it pays well, and I have a fixed schedule, so I plan other things around my schedule. "
If she could change one thing about my career, it would be the people who, I can't save. In other words she would save everyone.
If I knew then what I know now, I would have went straight through school and recieved my masters in nursing. Now that I have children and a family that I am responsible for, it is hard to focus on me, studying, going to school and even financially affording to pursue my degree. If you go for nursing, make sure you get your masters, there are more things to do with a masters in nursing and you do not have to be a bedside nurse. Bedside nursing is stressful at times and hard on the body.
 It was origninally hard for me dealing with death and patients, but eventually you become comfortable with the that people are born and people die. It is a cycle in life.
 When I was in nursing school, I was a full time student. I am not the smartest person, and nursing is not an easy major. After the first semester, I got a hang of exam patterns and I improved my study habits by making a very strict daily schedule. That is how I survived.  My family and friends were very supportive. 
If you could do it again what would you do different: 
Obtain my masters immediately after graduating.
I told her about myself and about my experience with changing my major from Nursing to Economics, I explained that my main concern is job security and I am not sure if I appreciate close patient contact. I think there are other ways to help people than healthcare. Some things just make me feel uncomfortable, gross and at times I feel insensitive to certain things because I have seen so much in the hospital. I expressed my soncern with death, I told her that I am fine with death but I can remember every patient that I have had to put in body bags. I expressed my concern with prolonging a patients life when they are on life support, some times you can tell that they are in pain and I feel like it is selfish of any human to prolong their suffering.

She agreed and said these are all valid concerns, you learn the best way to deal with them as you go along. The books can only teach you so much but you know yourself.


Nurse: 
Patricia
How did you know Nursing was the career for you?
I didn;t know.  I was going through a rough divorce and I had to make ends meet and everyone knows nursing gives you job security and good pay. I did it more for my kids than myself.
What do you wish you knew then, that you know now?
I wish I acknowledged the value of an education before I turnesd 32. Going back to school at 32, I felt like I just had to do it and I had no options. Although it was a good motivation, I still wish I had that motivation, when I was young like you. I would have went to Medical School instead. I feel like I limited myself at times. I realized how smart I was in nursing school. All it took was dedeication. 
What were some of the most difficult things about Nursing school, not having support, I though t it was impossible, It took me 3.5 years to complete an associated degree, I went to school part time because I had to work to take care of my kids. It was all worth it. 
Nursing is fufilling, I leave work everyday feeling accomplished. When I had no love with my husband, Nursing became my love and it has brought me confidence, security and experience that I would not have gotten otherwise. 
I explained to her that I changed my major from Nursing, 
" I don't blame you. your young, you can explore other things, there are more things to do in this world than helping the sick. If your heart is somewhere else then follow your heart. Whatever you do, dedicate yourself! Dedicating yourself, you'll be the best you can be in anything you do. Make sure you love what you do, otherwise, it is hard to leave. Think of your career as your husband. Your going to have to see alot of it. Whatever it is you decide to do, as long as there is passion there you'll be successful.

Sunday, October 4, 2009

Second Time Around...

My dream, " Take Part in the welfare of all humans and fellow youngsters in particular".


Project Director

The World Bank

Washington D.C. 202-473-1000

Country Director for Nigeria
Onno Ruhl
Tel: 234-9-314-5263
E-mail:
oruhl@worldbank.org



Program Director
Washington D.C. (202) 473-5139
Mrs. Ngou-

Lawyer
Lawyer Kayode
815-553-0506
Lawyer Sheila Maloney
s-maloney@law.northwestern.edu

Nurse
Nurse Ann 773-588-9640
Aunty Ganiat

Teacher
Mrs. Margie Cepone
Mcepon2@uic.edu

Professor Rockquemore
rockquem@uic.edu

Mr.RyanDecker
rdecke2@uic.edu

Goal
Working on my research and obtain a PHD in either Economics or Sociology.

1.~
-Obtain a position as a Young Professional with the World bank
-Masters of Urban Planning or Public Health

1.5)

-Obtain a job as Junior Young Professional with the World Bank

2. (currently doing this)
NIYA Youth Group
* become an active member of this group.
*attend events and meetings

3.
Obtain a bachelors degree in Economics.
*study
*prioritize
*manage time
*attend class, be punctual to class
*complete assignments before dead line
-Internship
* work in a different field other than my first internship
4.
Summer 2010
Study abroad
*Start the application process
*choose a location
*Apply for scholarships

3.
In a few months
Obtain an internship during christmas beak
*Research internships that I can start during Christmas break
*Apply for internship
* Interview

4.
SROP research study
(I have an idea on a topic, but I am afraid to research on the topic, its a bit personal for me.)

*Develop a research topic based on my senior thesis as well as something I can continue to research in my field in the future.

*find a teacher that is either interested in my research or is willing to work on my research with me.
*Face my fear